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63111111- MERALCO HOTLINE he3! Lagi na lang kasing nawawalan ng kuryente. Nakakatawa nga eh. Wala kaming kuryente noong nakaraang sabado. Na-LSS tuloy ako sa Meralco theme song dahil pinaghintay nila ako ng napakatagal.







waah! Knowledge is a very powerful thing. I seem to have this uncanny ability to discover stuff that i'm not supposed to KNOW. I hate snooping around. I mean, i love the show veronica mars and p.i. shows intrigue me. When i was younger being a private detective was in my what-i-want-to-be-when-i-grow-up list BUT i would NEVER snoop around my family/friend's private affairs. It just feels wrong. And i still believe in the cliche that "Ignorance is bliss". But as i've said, my "uncanny ability to know stuff i'm not supposed to know" makes it difficult for me to live a blissfully ignorant life.

I know most of our family secrets (most of which some of my aunts and uncles don't know about). It's not my fault that my grandmother tells me all of these secrets. I can't just close my eyes, put my hands on my ears, sing a silly song and run out of the room. Duh! She's my grandmother. That would be a sign of disrespect... And she would probably think that i'm going crazy.

I know about my dad's relationships. It's not my fault that his ex-girlfriends would badmouth his other ex-girlfriends so that they would look good. It's also not my fault that when my dad told me to clean my room, i found a box of love letters addressed to him. Of course i didn't know that they were love letters so i read them. It was really an honest mistake (promise!).

I know about problems that i shouldn't know about. My mom wants us to be close. Actually, she wants us to be friends. So, she tells me her problems. There's nothing wrong with that. Its just that grown-up problems are a bit different from teenage problems. When i was in high school, she told me a problem that my aunt had about her child and marriage. I was 14 years old! What would i know about that stuff? I shouldn't even be thinking about that stuff. And then, she told me about her problems with her boyfriend. Seriously, who would want to know about her MOM's love life? Maybe i'm being insensitive BUT...

I know lots of stuff that i shouldn't know about. I know them coz people tell me about them. Sometimes i just stumble upon the truth. I don't look for answers but the answers are given to me. Sometimes it's funny coz i don't even know the questions. Sometimes it makes me feel sad or angry coz i know the answer to a question that i couldn't even dare to ask. Instead of making things clear, it just makes things more confusing.

Knowledge is powerful if you know how to use it. But i don't want to use it. This kind of knowledge would hurt other people. It is a burden to know these things but i would rather keep this burden to myself that share it with the people that i love. I guess that this entry is a way to alleviate some of the burden that i'm carrying. I just wish that my mom and dad would never discover my blog. he3!

random lang talaga... i obviously need therapy...he3!

waaah! I'm not a fan of vampire lit pero astig talaga ang "Be Mine, Forever" ni Rosemary Laurey. I'm hungry. I'm need sustenance. er.. did i just use the word "sustenance"? O.O

Tanong ko lang...How do you know the difference between a schizophrenic and someone who frequently talks to his/her conscience?




Sometimes i envy babies and toddlers. They don't wear masks.They don't deal with complications. They just show raw emotions and they don't give a damn if it makes them look vulnerable.

gah!!!

gah!!! Life is so unfair. People are so unfair. My parents are so unfair. My dad is so unfair. Nung una, itinatrato nila akong parang isang hiyas na nakakulong sa torre ni Rapunzel at pinoprotektahan ng mababangis na dragon. Ngayon naman para akong isang kuting na walang kaalaman at kakayanan para mangaso (no pun intended) at bigla na lang itinapon sa mabangis at masukal na kagubatan. gah!!